Thursday, July 27, 2006

Rainiefied ---27/07/2006--- I guessed i really have too much to change... Selfish is not the only case, complacent too... Partially realised from those around me, from their expression on their faces... They need not say out, but i know... One look at Chermine's and Kai Yang's face made me realised it... Nevermind, one thing i know, i should not carry on with those attitudes and personality and i should change them, not to dissappoint them...

Something that i know, during my Sec 1 and 2 days, i had Faizel as my only friend... We only talk to one another rarely, especially during lessons, paying 100% attention during lessons... My Sec 1 and 2 life was a BORING and LONELY one... So when i reached Sec 3, i made a lot of friends, my life changed thereafter... But i don't wanna lose them too, so everytime i have to suit to their expectations... I once thought that my selfishness would ultimately lead into my friends leaving me, so i try my best to change... Kai Yang pin-pointed my selfishness, i took about a month to understand my own actions and thoughts, then finally managed to changed, which i suppose that i did... The current result, no one commented me on my selfishness already... But i'll try my best to change and suit accordingly... For now, complacent was another factor... I don't mind nasty and direct comments about my bad personality, just state out, i wish to know the impression i left for everyone... Now feeling tired again, somehow, it's undescribable, very tired...

Going crazy at...
Thursday, July 27, 2006