Friday, October 06, 2006

Rainiefied ---06/10/2006--- What is the feeling like when your mum scolds you as being complacent and arrogant when you are proud of your doings? Example, you worked so hard in obtaining a commander ranking in NS, through many tides and storms, will you be happy when u reap what u sow? And if you have gotten the position, and you just took a day off, you are being condemn by others as being arrogant and complacent, what's your feeling like? It's been for twice already, my mum scolded me for being arrogant for my maths, and the thing i did was i told her i wanna quit the EMaths tuition, somewhere a month ago, and told her that i wanna skip just only one session of the tuition as i wants to spend a fruitful day with my friends before the separations after O levels, which i told her that i wanna skip the tuition today.. Anyone think is fair? Forget it.. For some reasons, i really hate my mom.. And she kind of purposely involve me into helping her, example, carry stuffs for her, help her wash plates and wipe tables, WITH the hatred feeling you had for her.. I wonder if she's an IDIOT or a RETARD that couldnt notice that i'm angry at her.. Or maybe she had her E.Q. negative, that she couldnt identify people's feeling.. Or maybe she's just showing off that kind of laid-back unconcerned attitude.. For once, i feel like ending everything now.. Yes, i indeed thought of suiciding before.. And now, i would like to say, that i'm SICK of my current life.. Anyway, my life is nothing interesting and fruitful.. And i've observed something, i've started to hate everyone.. There's a limit to everything, patience and endurance.........

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Friday, October 06, 2006